I found it so hard to believe that the thoughts were illness driven

My story so far……. So, I’m a 30-year-old mum of 2 beautiful children, a 4-year-old daughter and a 6-month-old son. I wanted to share my story to help raise awareness and to help others out there that are suffering. Most people have heard of postnatal depression but no one talks about postnatal anxiety or OCD. Read more about I found it so hard to believe that the thoughts were illness driven[…]

“My dark Stranger” living with me

I am a UK mum of two little girls (aged 4.5 and 6 years old) and a survivor of two battles with my maternal mental health. Following the birth of both my daughters, I was left fighting my way through severe Postnatal Depression and the terrifying illness known as Postpartum Psychosis. The Psychosis, unfortunately, started Read more about “My dark Stranger” living with me[…]

All I ever dreamed about was being a mom..

I never thought I would experience postpartum depression or postpartum anxiety. All I ever dreamed about was being a mom since I was young. Prior to getting pregnant, was on a low dose SSRI for some anxiety. I had stopped it during my pregnancy because I felt really good. So when I found myself at Read more about All I ever dreamed about was being a mom..[…]

A drug allergy and the memory of my postpartum psychosis

“Any drug allergies?” the doctor asks. I’m seeing a new physician during the after hours clinic at my regular doctor’s office. I think I might have pink eye and I want to make sure the cold I’ve been nursing for a week isn’t pneumonia. “No,” I say, which is a lie. But it shouldn’t matter. Read more about A drug allergy and the memory of my postpartum psychosis[…]

Great Expectations: My Experience with Postpartum Depression

I titled this post Great Expectations because expectations played a big part in my experience with PPD/PPA. Having had PPD/PPA with my first child, I knew there was a 50/50 chance it would return. I even had a plan. But somehow I thought maybe it wouldn’t. The writing was on the wall. I was having Read more about Great Expectations: My Experience with Postpartum Depression[…]

Babies Are The Worst (and other things I thought with PPD)

I didn’t realize I had postpartum depression until my son was nearly a year old. Instead of thinking I was sick, I thought the vision I had of motherhood was a sham and a lie. I wasn’t entirely wrong. I was also in more trouble than I knew. As someone who had never experienced mental Read more about Babies Are The Worst (and other things I thought with PPD)[…]